The Begining of a Journey

Feb 5, 2009
So as an opener I just want to say I have created this blog as a journal of my trip and as a record of my adventure to discover self. I hope to make you laugh, I hope to make you cry, I even have aspirations of inspiring some of you... but most of all I hope to peel away the layers one by one and discover a self I only seldom connect with, a self I should listen to more but often ignore. If nothing else I wish on my journey to get one step closer to joy.

For those of you who do not know, I have had a rough couple of years with many ups and many downs although it seemed more downs than ups at the time. I struggled, I fought, I cried and I laughed, but thanks to the love of my friends, the support of my family and the drive within... I prevailed.

All of a sudden I have found myself at the brilliant age of 41 (try not to read that with the sarcastic tone I am typing with) and I am asking myself... What Now, Which Way, What Have I Done, What am I Going to Do? The more I sat thinking, the more the thoughts started to feel like they were enveloping me, creeping up and tying me down as if I had shackels connected to my very soul.

It is interesting how crisis can bring to the very brim.. who you are, who you could be, what people think of you and what they may expect of you. The thing is though, for many years I have struggled... Struggled with the image of self I projected, sometimes getting in my own way resisting whatever good was headed toward me. Some people connected with my vibration truly seeing who I was. That is the self I hope to connect with.

With all this said, I had decided the best way to journey into self was to change it all up, taking some time reflecting on what I like in myself and making it better while deleting the parts of my symphony that seem out of tune. Aptly put as a DJ produces his music refining it into an even better product, I am about to remix myself!